13 weeks 3 days: The Good, the Bad, and the Bloody

TMI Warning: I will warn anyone reading to skip this blog if you don't want to read about blood. But I did vow I would "keep it real" with this blog so that it may help other ladies going through similar situations to know they are not alone.


The good??? Bosley is cancer free according to the biopsy results! He should not need any further surgery unless the growth starts to bother him, which it hadn't to this point at least. What an answer to  prayer :)

The Bad? More blood I am afraid... Quite a bit more than from the last post. This past Thursday-my 13 week mark- I awoke around midnight to some bright red blood when I went to the bathroom. I laid back down hoping it would stop, but when I awoke again at 4:45 am it had increased in flow to the amount you might expect to see with a very heavy unexpected menstrual cycle. I immediately called my (very sleepy) on call OB,  who thankfully was my doctor that morning. He told me that unfortunately, even if I went to the ER again, there is nothing they can do this early in a pregnancy to prevent an occurring miscarriage. He said all anyone can do is to check the babies to see if they are still alive and that he thought I would be much more comfortable doing that later in the morning at his office than in the the ER again. I definitely agreed. Brent held onto me tight back in bed. I got barely a wink of sleep the rest of the morning,  and the 30 or so minutes that I managed I ended up waking both of us up crying out in my sleep from a nightmare. In it, I was having my ultrasound and all three babies looked fine. One was even holding both feet up to his face gleefully sucking on a big toe. Soon  after,  though,  my joy was shattered when we saw three deformed evil gremlin looking creatures in there with him that were cloning themselves for the purpose of harming the babies and me.  Thankfully,  the ultrasound revealed that all babies were still measuring on target with good heart rates,  and they were alone in there! My cervix was measuring a little on the short side at 32.8 cm, but  they were unable to pin down a specific cause for the bleeding via the ultrasound and pelvic exam. My OB told me to plan on indefinite modified bed rest at this point, or at least until further notice. I had originally thought I would definitely be able to work through October, and most likely through November so this was not good news, but I will do whatever I have to in order to keep these babies in there to term, and I hope that this will be enough. Friday in the wee hours of the morning I had some more red blood loss, but not as much as before, so I notified the OB office, and as usual, all they can do is tell me to keep taking it easy. The rest of Friday, Saturday, and most of today had been going well (just some brown blood-which indicates it is old and leftover from a previous bleed). Then tonight, about an hour ago, I got up from lying in the recliner for awhile and felt a warm gush down my legs in my baggy sweatpants. I admit I let out a few expletives as I rushed to the bathroom, only to find that it had indeed been a liquidy blood mixture that had coated my thighs and pants. It seemed to immediately slow down as if it had been pooling for awhile before I stood up. I called my OB who was on call again tonight to let him know, but already knew what he would say. "Lie down, hang in there, and go to your appointment tomorrow." He also playfully said "I really wish you would stop doing this!" You and me both, doc!

So tomorrow-FINALLY- is my first appointment with the high risk specialist that will be very in depth lasting 2-3 hours. I have a list of questions ready for her. I hear she is one of the best out there, but is very blunt and will probably scare me. I don't think much more can scare me at this point after having multiple blood gushes while pregnant with triplets, so I hope she is up for the challenge! I really hope she will be able to tell me what is causing the bleeding and can outline a plan for how we are going to give these babies the best chance of making it.

Again, thank you all so much for the prayers and support- and please keep the prayers coming. I will update again tomorrow after the appointment with hopefully good news!